Week 5 hit home for me…literally!
We’ve lived in the same house for 15 years. When our family of six first moved in it was very different from our original home. The layout was not open. We had a lot of doors to go through to get where we wanted to go. It had an entirely different composition to it that left me feeling stifled and caged. I struggled with it until I finally accepted that it was what it was and I would put up with it for a few years until we could sell it and re-build again. Five years went by. We upgraded the flooring and painted so that we could put it on the market. Not finding the perfect building spot and loving the neighborhood where we were we decided to stay for a few more years.
Master Keys 5.6 – “…this mind which pervades our physical body is not only the result of hereditary tendencies, but is the result of home, business and social environment, where countless thousands of impressions, ideas, prejudices and similar thoughts have been received. Much of this has been received from others, the result of opinions, suggestions or statements; much of it is the result of our own thinking, but nearly all of it has been accepted with little or no examination or consideration. “
We are the result of our hereditary tendencies? Meaning… what others have put in place becomes our reality? Taking ourselves out of that reality then is crucial for change. How do we do that knowing only what we know? Through imagination.
In the case of our house, we “inherited” someone else’s design and mode of living. Fifteen years later we find ourselves in the same house dealing with the same dis-functional layout and design. Although we have enjoyed living in the neighborhood and love the yard, the house has never felt like “home”.
In October of 2014 year we decided to remodel, update and to create a space that we could enjoy for the next 10 – 15 years.
We drew out our plan.
Master Keys 5.9 – “If either of us were building a home for ourselves, how careful we would be in regard to the plans; how we should study every detail; how we should watch the material and select only the best of everything;…“
We spent 3 full months studying every detail, agonizing over layout, structure, windows, doors, beams, decks, walls, flooring, and appliances. We questioned every part of the main floor and to what purpose it served and would we keep it or rebuild it. After 100’s of iterations we felt we had a solid design. We then had a draftsman draw up the plans from our blueprint.
Up until this point our dream had not one once of reality…it was still just a dream, a very specific, written down, detailed dream that we had spent hours and hours imagining with little risk involved. The next step, however, felt like jumping off a cliff without a parachute! In order for our dream to become reality, our emotional quest now required physical action. And so began the tearing down of existing frame work…down to the wall studs. Every stitch of sheet rock on the main floor was gone! Our routine life was immediately met with an abrupt disorderly interlude. We had burned the ships. There was NO TURNING BACK!
We laid new foundation. Walls moved, doors and windows moved. Every inch of the main floor that WAS, now was NOT. Even though I knew we would rebuild it I found myself wondering what in the world did we get ourselves into! It was unsettling. Everything was a mess…the yard, the house, the garage. All the bedrooms were filled with the main floor stuff.
Besides the master bedroom and bath, our living space now consisted of the laundry room with a fridge, a desk, a few cooking utensils and a large counter space for the next 5 months while we rebuilt the main floor of our house into our dream home.
MK 5.9 – “…and yet how careless we are when it comes to building our Mental Home, which is infinitely more important than any physical home, as everything which can possibly enter into our lives depends upon the character of the material which enters into the construction of our Mental Home.”
Right now I feel the same walls tearing down inside, right down to the studs. I am questioning everything, making a new blueprint one that is in service of the life I want to live.
It took 11 months to see the fruits of our imagination. There were times I wanted to throw in the towel… exhausted, jumping over obstacles on a daily basis, decision overload…I tell you it was hard to move forward some days. So glad we did it! The result is stunning!
For me, going through the Master Keys is similar. Sometimes I want to throw in the towel and walk away. My life isn’t bad. I have everything I need…but, but…there is just something deep down that wants to shine, wants to transform. I want to be of value and service and become the best I can be. This hope for becoming better is the driving force. Setting the blueprint through my DMP to me is like creating the blueprint for a house.
My every action is different in this new blueprint. Sometimes uncomfortable, hard, messy and chaotic as my inner walls move, shift and lay a new foundation. Ultimately it will feel comfortable. As it says in The Master Key – Part Five, “You can originate thought, and, since thoughts are creative, you can create for yourself the things you desire.”
Be careful what you wish for on paper…your blueprint just might come true!
Back of House – After (almost)
In Master Keys 5:7 it states: “The word has become flesh.”
I look forward to it.